Daca aveti ceva de luat de la F64, emag sau flanco si vreti sa ma ajutati si pe mine pentru ceva fonduri de film pentru proiectul Apologia, va rog mult sa o faceti printr-unul dintre linkurile mele de afiliat.
Este un program prin care se vireaza un mic procent daca cumperi prin linkul meu. Nu adauga nimic la pretul produsului.

Multumesc mult.

F64 – prima alegere intotdeauna cind cauti ceva complet aiurea pentru foto si video si speri ca acolo sa aiba. Si locul unde e omor de BlackFriday cind mi-am luat si eu o lampa led :)

EMAG – pentru tot felul de alte electronice (mobile?)

FLANCO – habar n-am, pentru ca e Flanco

PCMADD – un mic magazin de calculatoare de la ca mi-am mai luat eu chestii, ma bucur ca a intrat intr-un programul de afiliere, i-am gasit si pe okazii, cred ca printre primele magazine... more

Qualiafilm Acting Sessions

Cursul nostru nu este un curs clasic de actori, este format ca o pregatire normala pentru un film.
Veti trece prin exercitii care ajuta un om cu o viata cotidiana sa reuseasca sa se desprinda din modul lui normal de a actiona, inspre lumea personajului si lumea interioara a unui actor pe partea de video, asa cum percepe un actor lumea si cum reauseste sa existe in doua lumi deodata.
Actoria in teatru film fotografie si performance a venit in om ca o nevoie primara de a-si exprima toate partile lui, parti care nu pot fi exteriorizate in mod normal in viata lui de zi cu zi.
De aceea s-a creat acest spatiu special, numit arta dramatica, unde orice om poate sa intre ca intr-un spatiu interior unde are voie sa isi regaseasca personajele sale interioare.
Fiecare dintre noi avem o colectie interna de arhetipuri si ‘fiinte’ cu nevoi, nevoi de a exista.
La acest curs Qualiafilm Acting Sessions vom experimenta intrarea in acest spatiu, spatiu pentru film, spatiu delimitat cu camera de filmat. Si vom descoperi impreuna straturile si dorintele interioare.
Actoria este un mod de a trai. De a trai mai plin si adevarat mai complet. De a ne descoperi, de a ne intelege si de a ne accepta. Si cel mai important de a ne putea asuma propria noastra... more


Now for everybody out there that wanted to see what I do in filmmaking today I’ve made a small showreel that recaps some of the films and videos I’ve made since 2008.

Thank you all soo soo much for all your help, belief and sacrifice for these films to be made and screened in Romania and all over the world. Thank you my amazing romanian and german crews, thank you sooo soo much you amazing souls that you are dear dear actors, thank you beautiful reviewers, critics and viewers from all over the world that opened your souls and minds and feelings in front of these little films.
It was and it still is an amazing journey in film and I am the luckiest human to have met you and shared with you at least a small part of real and direct soul.
Thank you soo soo much to all.
And lets keep telling stories about our amazing sacred human experience.

Image is mirror, what we feel and see in it shows us more than the ones in the mirror.
Image/story is an intuitive language that can empathize with others outside ideas. Outside concepts, languages.

My... more

July 2015 facebook notes and thoughts

I just had a dejavu with Ana P about the necessity of objectivisation. And also about the dilema about why people vilified it.
Objectification is one of the original TMs of human race.

I used to talk alone. Now it got to be an online talking. A video talking. Sometimes through others but is still talking alone. Talking for the pleasure of the idea and the act itself of talking. Of uttering in a belived reality something of you inner most.
I still believe that we have two outsides one in reality and another in interiority.
I guess it is a circle somehow.

Civilisation is the product of OCD obsessions in people.
For the rest of us there is only freedom and existence.
Poverty, insecurity and lack of soap.

Sub orice critica,
that is the place I want to be.

We use soap in our desperate desire to become humans.
Our life project is to be recognized and legalized as humans.

I’ve never met a true artist.
I am living in fake and mediocre.
Is all I know, all I feel all that concerns me.

People can’t believe in a religion with all their heart, can’t respect a system of law and order, can’t trust their own pleasures and fears, because all that they believe in is the all... more

Genes vs Consciousness

People can’t believe in a religion with all their heart, can’t respect a system of law and order, can’t trust their own pleasures and fears, because all that they believe in is the all powerful deep and unconscious Gene – that is why in anthropology there is an oral unknown all powerful law, called the law of the land.

‪#‎Genes‬ are out most intimate guides and friends. They are our God and wisdom and truth. They are the only one we should trust.
Consciousness is too young in comparison. Is too wild and puerile. Gene’s Way is the Tao.

Consciousness will never be able to rewrite the Genetic code. It can only Scramble it, a bit. All modifications end in Death.
Genes self protection. They order suicide when they feel a strange force conquering their perfection.

Genes never experiment, never try things, they are all knowing all controlling, all perfect.
These days consciousness is their main enemy. Our lives are all developing in the middle of this total war.

Genes vs Consciousness.
Old vs Young.
Known vs Unknown.

... more

Doro about our #Beings experience on set and in the film


In November 2014 Andrei and I were working on #Beings together. I played Eva and here are some words about this experience:

I didn´t know Andrei and his work but I was very interested, when I first read about the idea of this movie.
On friday night, he sent me the script.
On Saturday I spent the day thinking about it – as there were a lot of aspects that made me face some of my biggest fears …
Saturday night, I suddenly had the feeling that it was right to give it a try.
On Sunday we met for the first time.
On Monday I met the cast and crew.
On Tuesday we started filming.
For someone like me, this was more than quick.

Well, I like long preparations. I like safety – or always considered myself being someone that likes safety and is in love with clear structures (as boring as it may sound).
So doing this movie was an adventure to me. But during the whole process, it just felt right and I enjoyed this adventure very much.

The relationship between... more

Nature got Suicidal

Nature kills itself.
We are part of nature.
And we cant talk to her, there is no one there to understand why she does it.
It is in our nature – and these days our nature is wrong – and we dint know why.
Nature is a dieing suferind. All we can do is try and understand why.
Nature got suicidal. It invented humankind.

Kali Yuga?... more

We play on Incompatibility

I guess that one of the roots of it all is the natural incompatibility between people, coupled with their need to work, pleasure, survive together.
This is how and why all the beauty arises.
That is why all trouble rise.
We are all incompatible with each other [ie. the refusal of a foreign replacing organ] putting it all behind is our daily struggle, and making and being good is our second added weight. That is why so few do it.
That is why all the violence, all the meaningless, all the class and social unrest and abuse.
That is why our need to disconnect – through pleasure, luxury, success, pride, promiscuity, religion, drugs, entertainment, art and intellectual escapism, even scientific method.
Disconnection is our natural drive to reconnect to a state of purity. And that is often painful and fearful. And that is so often refused and deemed evil.... more

june facebook notes and thoughts

I write a lot of unmade projects.

de ce pornografia strica reputatia?
de ce orice activitate sexuala publica strica o reputatie?
ce este o reputatie de poate fi stricata astfel?
pe ce se construieste o reputatie? oare pe aceleasi false si comune pretentiozitati?
daca sint un mare pianist de concert, de ce nu pot sa apar intr-un film gay scat violent alegoric la lupta culturii impotriva violentei si vilificarii tandretei masculine?
reputatie – este un minunat titlu de film
impreuna cu titlul Ugly – la care ma tot gindesc astazi.
multumesc Cosmin pentru thought provocation

I still can’t decide
To learn guitar and music
Or to explore it by myself
Append to tradition and good/best ways – append to their goals and values and forms
Or explore raw new unstable wrong ways?

Humanity is not the purpose of life.
But without humanity we couldn’t miss the meaning of life.

Some art forms are not compatible with all cultures.
Those left outside globalization find difficult to understand and even cope with the new thinking, new feeling, new understanding of life.
Romania will never make it. We will remain eternal.
We live our live, our art is only... more

may facebook notes and thoughts

There are so much more important problems than the problems of the ‪#‎soul‬
Should we ignore them, of ignore the soul? Well…
I guess we should ignore the thing that gives one, the least amount of pain and trouble.
I often wonder if I would care for these stupid issues, if in my teens I would discover some kind of popular talent.
I guess those that have nothing, remain with only their soul. Or become savage impotent angry animals.

A true ‪#‎cult‬ movie never promotes itself, its just left for dead until it putrefies and after one or two generations is found again, now purified of all contextuality.
A true cult film is found through wandering. Wandering on the way.
It all comes from the belief that is direct communication is not necessary, that only by putting thing into existence, through consciousness into the meta will spread and fly into the world and rain onto everyone.
ie: Tibetan prayers, Monastic Christianity, Theravada Buddhism, Taoism.
There are some things that need to be told in ‪#‎silence‬.

Cind ma gindesc ca peste 40 de ani nu o sa mai inteleg nimic din lume, si ca o sa ma raportez la zilele astea si la lumea asta de acum. Silly.

Cinema is drifting out of Cinema
I am... more

Apologia I


Apologia is a series of small films based on a character named Preuss/Jake that decides to renounces his soul and gets an operation to do so. After waking up in an abandoned Locks he returns home to see if without soul life is different. If he can see or feel life in another way.
His first change is that he is not hungry anymore. And that he becomes very suspicious about the whole procedure of the Medical Removal of the Soul, because there is no difference.
So he wonders and wants to find out, what is in  the Jar that he has in his possession and in which he was told it is his soul.

The first film is about Jake waking up as the remembrance of Preuss and transforming himself through Otte, a girl that saves the waking bodies after the Soul Removal Operation, back into human social form.

The second is about Jake that has his first encounter with Sab, an old and problematic realtionship of his. An encounter that will open all the wounds of... more

LIFE is BEAUTIFUL, my films are not


LIFE is filled with BEAUTY and LOVE

Is only the humans, with their inner and inter human relationships that make it Ugly and Terrifying. And I wondered why? I always wondered why is that?
And I got some answers: because of our self made fears, because the way we learn about life, because of our wrong inner construction, because of the Social/Political organisation of our Human/Class life, because of our Perceptive-Meaning-Thinking melange.
And so my films and art are about this, about the difficult process that we need to undergo so that we can come back to life, or to understand it. Not to enjoy it, not to be happy, but just merely to experience it. Happiness has nothing to do with Truth, with direct touch of life.
So no Beauty.
Beauty is a Formal Trap. Because all Beauty falls under the Values and Mores of Commercial Consumerism.
Beauty is like gold, like gambling, like porn, like drugs, easy to do, and hugely in demand. No questions asked. Beauty for Consume.
And I don’t want people Blindly indulging... more

april facebook notes and thoughts

There is a new world out there and it needs new stories.
It needs a new, origin, raw, organic, mythology.

There would be no Paul Klee if we all would strive to speak to each other in the same language. There would be no new ways, no new emotions, no perspectiva on our own world.
We are in a continuous search for a better perspective, a wider view upon our immense complex inner/outher processual being.

We live in a constant state of mild addiction. There is no rationality.

When I write I disconnect from all is life.

The refinement process has 90% waste.

We follow those that do their thing with love.
No matter what they do.
Is a human weakness.
Is a human bias.
Those that find the way to do it with a lot of love.
No matter what, evil, trash, noise, ugliness, violence, hopelessness, lies, beauty, meaning, truth.
We are suckers for love.
For love and sugar.

Facebookul m-a ajutat enorm sa fac film, primele doua filme exista din cauza ca pe facebook am intilnit oamenii minunati care au crezut in proiectele Meno si DT, apoi tot cu facbookul am reusit sa gasesc oameni superbi in Berlin pentru Beings, tot prin facebook am gasit spatii superbe si chiar legatura cu Cinemateca Union pentru... more