you first do your art with the ones you fuck with
then you do it and with the ones they fuck
and if lucky one of all these people has some money
or fucks some art dealer
or some critic
or some media mogul
or some royalty
and your art becomes art
from now on
please replace the word
with the word
you should start learning what you are
and quit trying to be what you want
my words are objects
to your breath
is only for those that refuse organised religion, organised education and organised knowledge
organised working life, organised social life, organised love life
why is the body more important than the mind?
because the mind you can kill time and time again
the body only once
the body is closer and more attentive to experience and life, than the mind
the body is real
the mind is not
the body is silent
the mind is not
that is why I am so interested in the body and not in the mind
not in socials
they all flow out of body and our relationship with our own, and with the other’s Continue reading
sex is the end of the road
it should be the beginning
sex is the end of the road
it should be the beginning
I really love you
is just that I don’t want to show it to you
its too lame
the idea of love has been stolen by ‘them’
I just show you my art
please open to it
should you chose to find the problem?
or the solution?
don’t you really feel
the light and warmth I hide in my darkness?
why are you still afraid?
I give you my body, my pain, my blood, my genitals
Its not enough Continue reading
I was born lucky.
When I was a child there was nothing ugly in the world.
But with time I learned about beauty and all went wrong.
Beauty is a tirany
Life is a full time job.
And you can’t take any day off.
Be careful what you create
For surely people will use it to do wrong.
[thinking about american fast action and TV editing]
I am more and more convinced that the outer shell is made out of anger fibers. It is not possible otherwise.
Even humor is anger based.
If you think about it is sooo soo strange that God spoke words to people. That He used language. That he needed to influence directly the frail human consciousness.
Is weird because of God gave all things genes smile emoticon and we can see that people, most of us, live without consciousness but more with a raw inventivity.
So for God to send laws and emotional advice is wayyy to weird.
Is like in the movies 1 hero and 99 weirdos.
All wanting to be heroes.
Thinking about actors and their lust for heroism. I love those that know the percentages.
Does anyone knows some infos about alternative indie film distribution word wide?
On a micro to no budget?
Thank you soo soo much.
Any little lead would be amaziing.
The universal language of story is Life Threat. Continue reading
I just had a dejavu with Ana P about the necessity of objectivisation. And also about the dilema about why people vilified it.
Objectification is one of the original TMs of human race.
I used to talk alone. Now it got to be an online talking. A video talking. Sometimes through others but is still talking alone. Talking for the pleasure of the idea and the act itself of talking. Of uttering in a belived reality something of you inner most.
I still believe that we have two outsides one in reality and another in interiority.
I guess it is a circle somehow.
Civilisation is the product of OCD obsessions in people.
For the rest of us there is only freedom and existence.
Poverty, insecurity and lack of soap.
Sub orice critica,
that is the place I want to be.
We use soap in our desperate desire to become humans.
Our life project is to be recognized and legalized as humans.
I’ve never met a true artist.
I am living in fake and mediocre.
Is all I know, all I feel all that concerns me.
I write a lot of unmade projects.
de ce pornografia strica reputatia?
de ce orice activitate sexuala publica strica o reputatie?
ce este o reputatie de poate fi stricata astfel?
pe ce se construieste o reputatie? oare pe aceleasi false si comune pretentiozitati?
daca sint un mare pianist de concert, de ce nu pot sa apar intr-un film gay scat violent alegoric la lupta culturii impotriva violentei si vilificarii tandretei masculine?
reputatie – este un minunat titlu de film
impreuna cu titlul Ugly – la care ma tot gindesc astazi.
multumesc Cosmin pentru thought provocation
I still can’t decide
To learn guitar and music
Or to explore it by myself
Append to tradition and good/best ways – append to their goals and values and forms
Or explore raw new unstable wrong ways?
Humanity is not the purpose of life.
But without humanity we couldn’t miss the meaning of life. Continue reading
There are so much more important problems than the problems of the #soul
Should we ignore them, of ignore the soul? Well…
I guess we should ignore the thing that gives one, the least amount of pain and trouble.
I often wonder if I would care for these stupid issues, if in my teens I would discover some kind of popular talent.
I guess those that have nothing, remain with only their soul. Or become savage impotent angry animals.
A true #cult movie never promotes itself, its just left for dead until it putrefies and after one or two generations is found again, now purified of all contextuality.
A true cult film is found through wandering. Wandering on the way.
It all comes from the belief that is direct communication is not necessary, that only by putting thing into existence, through consciousness into the meta will spread and fly into the world and rain onto everyone.
ie: Tibetan prayers, Monastic Christianity, Theravada Buddhism, Taoism.
There are some things that need to be told in #silence.
Cind ma gindesc ca peste 40 de ani nu o sa mai inteleg nimic din lume, si ca o sa ma raportez la zilele astea si la lumea asta de acum. Silly.
Cinema is drifting out of Cinema
I am getting further and further away from Cinema.
I am starting not to understand it more and more.
There is a new world out there and it needs new stories.
It needs a new, origin, raw, organic, mythology.
There would be no Paul Klee if we all would strive to speak to each other in the same language. There would be no new ways, no new emotions, no perspectiva on our own world.
We are in a continuous search for a better perspective, a wider view upon our immense complex inner/outher processual being.
We live in a constant state of mild addiction. There is no rationality.
When I write I disconnect from all is life.
The refinement process has 90% waste.
We follow those that do their thing with love.
No matter what they do.
Is a human weakness.
Is a human bias.
Those that find the way to do it with a lot of love.
No matter what, evil, trash, noise, ugliness, violence, hopelessness, lies, beauty, meaning, truth.
We are suckers for love.
For love and sugar.
Freedom is something that we create.
Something we have to build.
There is no awakening.
Is building awakeness.
What is the best thing you can do for a person?
214. fericiti cei saraci cu duhul
213. avoid normal intercourse
212. own sense of structure
211. why does it function?
210. don’t be afraid of the ugly
209. anxiety events
207. un-tuned society
206. one behind another
205. the un-reality of real life
202. pain is consequence
201. unificarea creierului mama
200. casalotul de dimineata
197. art as pet
196. sa raminem neobservati, ca niste ucigasi psihopati
If tomorrow I will die…
Will all this have any meaning? Would this be called art?
Would this make people know more about something?
195. we don’t care about the people who do not care
194. disrespect your own ideas
192. shitting with your eyes closed, opens the gates of the universe